Tested

That seems to be the theme of my summer. At the begining of this summer I had a hard time and then I had about a month and a half where things were pretty good. I couldn't really complain. In fact there were some good things going on. Then all the sudden wham within three hours things just fell apart. I no longer work at Curb. Well, I am there now but tomorrow is my last day. It's just been a hard week. Monday I felt like my plans just shattered and I was lost again. I feel a lot better about things today. It's always to see things when you aren't super emotional about them like I was when I first dealing with them. My parents also don't think I am as strong as I actually am. That hurts. I kind of understand because they just want to protect me because they love me but they should trust me enough to know I can handle things that I set out to do. They aren't here everyday to see what I am handling now and if they were I think they would know that I could handle it. I also have to let something go that I really don't want to. It's more someone that something. I don't want to go through what I have again and if I don't do it now I will be sitting aroudn waiting for something that's never going happen yet again. I don't need to do that again. It hurt too much the first time to let myself get like that again.
Anyway, just pray for me please if you do that kind of thing. I need help to figure things out.